The truth: Some people don't deserve their own children

Life comes at you in the craziest ways. 

Really. 

Somehow I always figured I would end up a single mom at some point. I never ever would've guessed that it would only last about 4 months. I'm sure you know the story: I met a boy. Life was forever changed, blah blah blah. 

Except it's not so 'blah'. 

Being a mom myself, I never imagined he would have full custody of his daughter. "Why would a mother ever want to give up her daughter?" I thought. I always knew Madi would be a part of our lives. A big part. I had no idea how big. 

It turns out a mother can easily want to give up her daughter. Quite the opposite. A mother can fight not to have her daughter. I cannot wrap my head around this at all, since I would kill someone before I let them take my daughter away. But fight to get rid of her? 

First it was a weekend arrangement - she would spend the weekends with her mother. That was her mother's request. From the first weekend she's tried to fight it. 

I'm not sure the real reasons on this. I know the reasons she tells us, but since the stories and circumstances change from week to week, I don't know the real reason. All I know is this weekend her mother refused to open the door and let her own child into her home. "For the good of both her children", she says. 

I've already said more than I meant to, but I'm not taking it back. I don't respect this person in the slightest, but I will respect what privacy she has left, and leave it at that. 

Eric and I have argued more times than I can count. We've talked, we've discussed. But ultimately, we have no control. We can't make this mother want to see her child, and we can't keep her away from her. We get to go along with whatever she requests, at least until legal papers are signed. 

We want this little girl in a stable, loving environment. She is not an option to us. We're tired of changing our schedule from week to week to suit her mother's requests. We want a stable arrangement. We're tired of Madi being shoo-ed out the door at her mother's house because 'it's better for Madi'. 

We've been under so much stress and I'm tired of not talking about it. What is there to hide? 

She's our daughter now. We're going to fight for her. She doesn't deserve to be treated as an option. I hope her mother comes to regret this for the rest of her life. 

I never would've guessed that this is where we would be, after less than two years of dating. It's really crazy when you think about it. I'm not giving up. Ever. 

But it is still so hard sometimes.