I don't want to talk about stuff anymore.
The weekend was okay. Chloe was gone, so I cleaned and had some 'me' time. I said 'fuck anxiety' and I had coffee. The day was great. But the coffee killed my appetite, and then I spent the entire evening feeling sick from hunger, but the thought of any food made me feel worse. I managed to get down some milk. I fell asleep, still felt bad when I woke up around 1am, but felt fine in the morning. Well, not fine. I was super sad and depressed feeling after being woken up at 6:20am by Madi on my day to sleep in. But I didn't feel sick. I spend more days feeling sick than not lately. I don't know how to help myself anymore. I'm miserable.
I go for counselling tomorrow. But since it's about $100, it'll probably be a one time thing. I'm not sure what one time will do, but I hope it does something.
I need to feel better.
3 comments:
I'm sorry you still feel so bad, have you tried Xanax? It works wonders for me, though I try my best not to take it everyday just the days when I'm feeling REALLY anxious.
i'm really sorry you're having such a hard time. i hope the counseling is helpful - i think one time can be helpful; the counselor can pack a lot of good info and advice into that one hour! if you tell him/her you can only afford this one time, maybe he or she will have some advice about where to get cheaper therapy, too.
god luck!
I'm so sorry. :( I really hope the counseling helps...even if it is just one time.
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